We are back here again. This time Im going through with it. I feel terrible. Its what I want but why do I feel terrible. I have good and bad days. I dont want to work it out. I want my life back. Why am I divorcing??? Because I am not happy, Im not faithful, we have no connection. We are going through the motions. I need more. But again I feel terrible. I dont want to hurt him but am I hurting myself?